27 December 2012

hiatus


There is something sublime about the days between Christmas and New Year.  The pressure is off and small pleasures can be indulged without the least feeling of guilt.  I'm thinking here of christmas pudding and seriously creamy vanilla custard for lunch, cake and a glass of oloroso for tea, and long naps in the late afternoon.  There may be soup for supper, or maybe not.  The greatest risk of discord comes from whichever of the cats have missed out on the best seat in front of the fire.  There is a bit of walking, a quick trip to the plot to pick mizuna and radicchio, some reading, maybe some light sewing, time to reflect - not too long - on the past year and to hope for good things in the year coming.  Even if it is more rain.

24 December 2012

day 24: angels in ivy


Our angels came from Woolworths* sometime in the 1960s when the floors and counters were made of wood and you could buy lots of Christmas gifts there - cheap perfume, bath salts, handbags, and everything you might need for a nativity scene.  It feels like the right place to end this year's advent journey.  

So the candles are lit, the pudding is boiling, the Last Minute Christmas Cake is cooling on the rack, the cousin-who-brings-her-own-indoor-weather** is flying over the Irish Sea, the smoked salmon beigels have been eaten and a bottle of sherry is waiting on the table by the fire.  It's time to say thank you all very much indeed for coming along here for the last 24 days and to hope that that your celebrations are full of all the happy things  you might wish for. 

xx

PS If you are still hankering after snow, do pop in here,  

* with apologies to Barbara Comyns and William Blake
** a sort of whirlwind or friendly tempest

23 December 2012

day 23: old spice

Definitely not a Dutch Still Life
There is a slight sense of abandon setting in here.  We've been chopping and measuring out the fruit and freshly ground spices for the christmas pudding.  Late enough already, we had to send the man on an errand to buy a wholemeal loaf and some cinnamon while we two, my cousin and I  measured out the Royal Dutch advocaat and ginger beer as a little treat. On the table now are an empty glass that half an hour ago was a frothy snowball, the peel from a satsuma and, at last, the christmas pudding--in-waiting.

A taste of the mixture and the aroma from the bowl reminds me fleetingly of my dad's Christmas aftershave.  Old Spice.

22 December 2012

day 22: list


I have been working my way through my list - a bed ready in time for my cousin who is staying, food ticked off, gifts for most of the family. The tree is up, that is the home-made pyramid which is passing for a tree again this year. I decided we would just have the lights and old baubles, the colours of Quality Street.  Just one problem. Where it has been down in the cellar leaning against the wall, it has warped slightly.  Looking across the room at it now there is a hint of the Leaning Tower of Pisa.  It appears that the so-called tree has a list of its own and it's driving me nuts.

21 December 2012

day 21: donkey





Readers may have noticed that I am somewhat enchanted by donkeys and so insist on having one in the calendar.  Ever since I saw a neglected donkey on sale for £10 at Puck Fair I've wanted to look after a donkey of my own. I couldn't bring one home a the time, so now I think about George. He is also an Irish donkey, abandoned this summer at the end of Cahirmee Fair in County Cork because prices were too low. The day after the fair, John and his friend, a farmer, went back to town and found him on a piece of fly-tipped land, said hello, and took him back to the farm to be cossetted.  And thus George fell on his pretty little hooves - well fed, good company, plenty of treats.  He is  spending the winter "with a group of  ponies by the river wearing a very grubby blanket". I asked if George might do a star turn here in the run up to Christmas and here he is.  

I may be a little bit in love.


20 December 2012

day 20: round robin


I can hardly believe it.  Day twenty already and we haven't seen a robin.  Try this - photo and text taken from an email today from my friend Mrs C.

"Thank you for my robin (see photo) who is now nestling rather anxiously i feel amongst the cards. He will soon get used to his new home.  He must be the best card i have ever had  Without realising it you have sent the infamous Round Robin card.  (actually maybe you did realise it and i didnt!!  I get there in the end ) He also doubles up nicely as Pigeon Post because of the Christmas greeting tag attached to his leg. Thank you so much for him and of course every time I look at him your little face looks back at me."

You may be able to tell that Mrs C is my very oldest friend because I wouldn't normally be flattered by someone telling me that a round robin somehow looked like me.

And for the record, it is the only round robin I have ever sent.

19 December 2012

day 19: headspace


We went, Baz and I,  to the White Cube in Bermondsey, and found our own little cube within Antony Gormley's Model.  Never mind what others think, personally I enjoyed the opportunity to enter the labyrinthine gloom and explore.  There was some crawling, scuffs on the shoes, a lost (and found) silk headband, and some deep, deep darkness.  Once we thought we'd reached all possible extremities - maybe- we made our way back but found a ledge.  We climbed up and into a black cubic void, felt our way to the corner and sat there in silence, entirely unseen, watching people stooping along down the corridor, disoriented and fearing a knock on the head.  Some were using the light from their phones, a couple explored "our" space with arms outstretched, tentative and cautious.  Only one person, a tall man, ventured within at which point Baz warned him we were there as he edged his way forward - I was all for staying schtum to see how close he got, but that might have been unkind.  Tricks of the light made us feel higher than we were and I thought this is what it might be like to be a well-camouflaged bird or animal, an owl maybe, at night.  After I while I realised just how much people miss by seeking  without looking, and how risk averse people were, how unwilling to play a little.  I was surprised at how much wiser I felt I had become from sitting still in the dark.

I had masses to do that day and I'm still behind but I don't regret for a minute my hour of exploration and, somewhat paradoxically, enlightenment from the dark.  I'd recommend it as the world rushes on.

18 December 2012

day 18: snow


Front stalls, Row J, Seat 13, Slava's Snowshow*.

Indoor snow, but accompanied by lots of awe and laughter, dramatic music, a covering of filmy nylon, a snowstorm, and giant balls and  balloons bouncing through the audience.  Absolutely amazing.  And to think I was dubious about whether I would enjoy a show that was all clowns.  The secret, I discovered, was to surrender to the surrealism.

There's a snowshow in the bathroom now where little pieces of white snow- paper are littering the floor after falling out of my clothes as I got ready for bed.

*A gift from my quizzy mate J.

17 December 2012

day 17: wreath


The choice of wreaths at the local florist for the family graves was limited:  a small, very prickly holly wreath with a couple of artificial berries for colour; a green plastic artificial wreath with glittery cones, apples and poinsettia; or a confection of garish red or white petals, some in the shape of an X (a kiss?).  My mum found it hard to choose, but opted for the glitter. When we got to the cemetery, she wiped down the stone before hanging up the wreath, had a little chat with my dad to tell him we'd been, and said ta-ta.

We moved on to Granddad, Auntie Mary and Auntie Rosie.  They had the silvery glitter version.  Very jolly it was too.

My mum decided that she had made a good choice.  Oddly enough, I think she was right.

16 December 2012

day 16: glints


Glint: to give off reflection in brilliant flashes; a tiny bright flash of light; a brief or faint manifestation

:: 7:45am - In bed, thinking, for some unfathomable reason, about the jewels buried in an Arctic glacier by artist Sophie Calle and wondering where they were now.

:: 9am - Looking up river and catching the glint of light on the Shard.

:: 1pm -  A pixie in a tiny pool of light along the woodland path at the nature reserve.  Must have been her lunch-break.

:: 3pm -  Remembering the glint in John's eye when he bought a second hand tweed jacket yesterday, and again today when he found a large green plastic trug washed up in the detritus on the edge of the river which he later filled with wood for the fire.


:: 5.30pm - After a heavy shower while we were all singing carols in the square, a crescent moon, and lamplight glancing off  a collection of raindrops on a waterproof coat.


15 December 2012

day 15: something furry

Allotment fox
When it came to the annual expedition to find the new "best" winter coat, my mother applied rather strict rules.  The coat would not be worn until Mass on Christmas day, and thereafter only on Sundays or to very special outings.  And fur collars would not be allowed because she thought they looked "cheap".  Naturally I desperately yearned for a coat with a fur collar though as time went on the desire must have become suppressed.  So for many years I have worn, for the most part, sensible coats - a penchant for tweed, a touch of cashmere, enlivened by the occasional dramatic silhouette, vibrant colour or fancy lining.  Underneath though, the genes I share with my late Aunt Rosie, she of the dyed ginger hair, cake mascara, a small glass of sherry in the "off sales"of the Dog and Truck and the fur collar, have been waiting to do their dirty work.  The sad truth is that I still long for a bit of fun fur. I saw some last week in Rolls and Rems, fabric emporium to the good people of Lewisham. I have been thinking that it would look rather nice edging my black cape, the one that makes me look rather too much like I have stepped out of Hogwarts. I have already measured up how much I would need.  I may, just may, have to go back and buy some.

The beautiful fox, blatantly lounging around at the allotment last week, would understand I'm sure.

14 December 2012

day 14: skate


London's ice rinks are so tempting and the setting at Somerset House on a cold evening is prettier than many.  Waiting to meet my friend I watched the novices testing their blades in the nursery area, tentatively edging themselves along the railing, gaining momentum, wobbling  for a while and eventually gliding off.  It looked like fun and I wanted to join in but the left side of my brain knows that this would almost certainly be a step, or more likely a stumble and a crash, too far.

When I came home I checked up on Raeburn's Reverend Robert Walker skating on Duddingston Loch  to remind myself how it really ought to be done.  Quietly, with dignity, wearing a lovely black coat and hat.

13 December 2012

day 13: dance


The Tower Hamlets Over 50s Christmas Tea Dance (average age somewhere around 75): hundreds of cups of tea, platters of sandwiches, plates of mince pies, tins of Quality Street, ladies in their sequinned finery, chipper old men wearing their best ties and us with our aprons and neat black dresses pretending we're nippies.

It all gets a bit boisterous after sherry and port have been served.  Thank goodness it only lasted until half past four because by then we were bushed with making all those giant pots of tea. I love it when they go home smiling and rosy cheeked with the odd filched mince pie wrapped in a paper napkin and half the shiny table decorations tucked in their handbags saying thanks for the lovely time they've had.  We wish them all a happy holiday and keep our fingers crossed that we'll meet again at another tea dance next year.

12 December 2012

day 12: a frost

Frosty Mullein
Sent on an errand to the Mudchute allotment, I left home late, as usual.  It was a good drive down though - I got two flicked indicator thank-yous from cab drivers and a wave and a smile from a little girl in a woolly hat on a zebra crossing. This was most cheering.

I arrived just as the light was beginning to fail. Walking along the farm path, I could hear invisible robins in the trees, and those sounds that blackbirds make as they flit around lat the end of the day. A couple of horse were led by, slightly spooked by a stranger in the half-light, consoled by the stable-maid.  To the left, a large and restless ram, then a couple of llamas.  All the other animals were secured for the night.  By the time I unlocked the gate to the plots it was dusky, a slight pink glow to the south west, though the frost which must have been there all day still reflected enough light to look around the deserted plots in all their shabby messiness.


I knew the snaps I was taking would be fuzzy, but thought that was fine because that's how everything always looks to me at this time of night. I especially liked the way the neighbour's cavolo nero looked exotic under the its fleece,



the way the tips of the vine blurred as I struggled to focus on at least one of the shoots,



the still life quality of a leaf ...


... and a paving slab weight on a blue plastic tarp laid down on the ground to keep out the frost.


As the sun went down, the only light was coming from the buildings at Canary Wharf and I thought I better take my trolley and get off home before I got spooked too.


Back at home, waiting for my cocoa to heat up, John said I should put my head out of the back door to hear how cold it was.  He was right.  Almost dead quiet except for a delicate, almost imperceptible cracking sound.

11 December 2012

day 11: a good book



Recently I asked a friend, a serious writer and reviewer of books, to recommend some nature writing to me. Stuck in a reading rut where I'd had difficulty finding anything at all* that I wanted to read,  I thought I might try something entirely new to me, some "nature writing".  He kindly sent round a pile of books and mentioned one or two others that I  might like.  Nearly all written by men.  I gave them a try but really struggled.  For the most part I found them unnecessarily wordy, overly romantic, and frequently self indulgent.  Mabey, Deakin, Lister-Kaye.  (Oh my Lord, can these men go on - where are the women? ) I couldn't get on with any of them, though I'm told I should try again with Waterlog,  I loved the first and last chapters of Luke Jennings' Blood Knots, a memoir which told me more than I ever knew about fishing, but it still didn't quite satisfy something I was looking for but could not name.  

It seemed that I was at a metaphorical crossroads in a wordy forest ready to give up when  I had a joyous discovery.  The wondrous Kathleen Jamie.  Insightful, quirky, sharp and gentle at the same time.  She writes about birds, bones, stones, the sea, the past, the present with such perception and, exceptionally, without a trace of false sentiment.  Her description of a sighting, two sightings, of killer whales off the Islands actually gave me goose bumps and her observation on bones, especially whales, is captivating.   I cannot recommend her book too highly.  

If you are interested in having a copy of Sightlines** and you've left a comment on the any of the Advent Calendar posts by Christmas Eve, I'll put your name in a hat and send the winner a copy.  You don't have to do any thing else unless you don't want your name included, though any recommendations for uplifting books are most welcome.  Obviously the winner won't receive Sightlines until the end of the year, but what a treat to look 
forward to.

* I fear this may be partly a result of my eyesight!  I've started to wear reading glasses, though even they are a pain.

** Liz - this is the book you asked about in the photo of the cats

day 10: heart


We had a lovely afternoon yesterday, some EEWI buddies and I.  Home made soup - leek and celery, and carrot potage*, a wee glass of port, tea, cake and shortbread.  I lit the fire to try to keep warm and the cats popped in to schmooze or laze by the radiator.  Then we set to with biscuit cutters as templates, donated fabric, floss, ribbon, buttons and lavender, and chatted and snipped and sewed.  Except for Elizabeth who has developed an obsession for Polish Porcupines which are lovely but require some dedication.  We're selling the hearts at our Christmas Market next week and any money we raise is going to a local charity for women which we support.


(Oh!  Have just spoken on Radio 4's "You and Yours" call-in about charity, second up.  Very interesting discussion, with lots of the issues people raised here being reiterated.  People it seems have cut back because of reductions in income, though not to the extent that the NCVO suggests.  Smaller charities are taking the brunt of cuts.  Among the issues raised by callers were real concerns about efficiency of the charities, no action taken on complaints about continuous requests for reduction in letters, continuous requests for donations.  Positive suggestions were to be firm (yes!), make direct debits to the charities which are meaningful to you, write to them if you are unhappy with them sending continuous bumph when you want your money to go towards services.  Sound familiar? One caller's daughter had decided to give an equivalent amount to charity when she bought frivolous clothes and found that this made her think about how much she really needed to buy something.  The Give More website was mentioned as a place to look for novel ways of giving which don't necessarily cost money (Hope signing up to access the guide doesn't result in more barracking.)  And, finally, a reflection on how tough it is becoming for some people, a rather alarming increase in the use of food banks.)

Hearts, and your own generous support, seem apt today.

*the carrot soup was inspired by a recipe on Liz's blog ages ago but I can't find the link - sorry

09 December 2012

day 9: melody


I discovered something today: that it isn't baking, or making, or writing cards, or shopping ( I have done none of these, by the way) or even the weather that make me feel like Christmas is really on the way.  It is hearing the first carol.  Somehow they have eluded me until now, but I caught a snatch of a folk version of The Holly and the Ivy on the radio this afternoon and it suddenly all felt real.  It coincided with the pruning of our holly tree, so there are snippets of leaves around the kitchen looking deep and glossy and ready to be constructed into something possibly christmassy.  It's not quite all coming together, but at least I'm in the zone.

We've also been along this evening to a concert of Brahms' German Requiem at a nearby church, home to a rather marvellous choir.  Now, a requiem might hardly seem like a precursor to festivity, but it was beautifully executed. and uplifting  According to the programme, Brahms was not religious but chose the texts from the Lutheran Bible to give comfort and consolation to the living and finally promise them rest. Maybe rather more apposite for the next few weeks than it first seems.

If your preference is for something more obviously seasonal you could do worse than find something in the Book of Christmas Melodies.  I bought it in a charity shop, attracted by the jolly cover - I do love a wall.  I was planning to cannibalise it to make cards but I just couldn't do it.  In my head a day will come when someone will play on an upright piano all the unheard of carols just to please me.  As that is somewhat unlikely, I have been amusing myself thinking how I might be able to illustrate some of the lesser known carols and include them in the calendar, like this for example:

Sketch by John from life drawing class with carol music

In other acts of silliness, the search is already on for an "Angel's Trump".  It was mentioned in a programme I watched about Tallis and Byrd this week and now I've got to find one.  If you'd like to commission or even contribute something not too unreasonable yourself for the advent calendar please do.  I am definitely up for a quest.  

Oh, and the other thing I learnt today is that I definitely need more music in my life.

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Many thanks for your comments on the gold coins post about charity.  I very much appreciate your sharing your perspectives on such a personal topic, and it was some consolation to find that I am not the only one who has decided that lines have to be drawn somewhere.

08 December 2012

day 8: three cats in harmony



The precedent for cats in the advent calendar is already set, and if we can have three ships, then we can have three cats.  It really is very unusual for the three of them to share the same space.  Normally they will be spread around the house, occasionally two will curl up, this normally initiated by the Mitten Cat who likes to be warm.  Three, purring in harmony, seems to be something they saved for the run up to Christmas.

07 December 2012

day 7: gold coins


Christmas stockings in this house always contain gold coins, chocolate of course, and oranges or tangerines.  It seems that the tradition is derived from the stories of King Wenceslas's charity to vulnerable women, the poor, the imprisoned. Ah, those wonderful chocolate coins. I once managed to use one as a kind of currency.  One very wet evening when the tube was down, a bus driver refused to let me on because I didn't have the right change   A woman offered to pay for me, and when we sat down, both like drowned rats, I remembered that I had bought one of those giant chocolate coins and gave that to her in exchange.  Whenever I see those chocolate coins I think of her small kindness.

I've been thinking more generally about kindness and charity this week.  Everyday, or so it seems, a request arrives asking me - not my partner, interestingly- to make a donation - phone calls, letters, shopping catalogues, emails, knocks on the door.  I feel besieged.  So I decided that I'd do a little bit of research and discovered this report.  It went some way to explaining why I'm being targeted: it seems that women in my age bracket give more than any other group.  Moreover, people are more likely to give if they are asked, hence the deluge.  Among the still relatively generous UK population, we older women are clearly an easier touch when it comes to marketing.

The NCVO report  also explains that income from charitable giving has dropped for the last two years - I know mine has.  The share of giving by cause makes interesting reading, with medical research topping the list, followed closely by giving to hospitals/ hospices and children's charities following closely behind; a higher percentage is donated to animal charities than charities for the disabled.  I also discovered that, unsurprisingly,  we are more likely to give to charities which have some personal resonance for us.  Looking elsewhere I found information on the salaries of charity CEOs and wondered whether some of those six figure salaries were justified.

All this made me feel less guilty about binning those marketing letters and giving cold callers and chuggers the brush-off.  I still have no idea what is a reasonable amount* to give to charity even though I do have a rough budget for direct debits to charities, giving on an ad-hoc basis, sponsoring friends and family, and one-off gifts.  And maybe I should be spending more of my gold coins or time on local causes that might not be cuddly and pretty rather than wearing a Christmas jumper.  Or should I do both?

It's doing my head in. What do you think?

* if I stuck to the median for my gender and age, it's £180 a year cash, but that doesn't take into account volunteering time


06 December 2012

day 6: health warning


In case you are thinking of eating another mince pie or, in my case, some home-made shortbread, you might want to defer some of that gratification for a week or so.

On the other hand, if you'd rather close this door in the calendar, you might prefer to open this window instead.

05 December 2012

day 5: string


It's definitely stretching a point to think you might open a door in an advent calendar and find oddments of string.  I suppose a brightly coloured parcel with pretty ribbon is a possibility, but string?  Unlikely.  However, I very much like this box of string that I saw at my cousin's place.  All those different colours, sizes, textures, the way it looks like scribble, the potential it has to be reused, tied round a brown paper parcel and handed on to someone else, the joyous frugality of it.  The perfect counterpoint to, say, christmas shopping.  A little gift in its own right, from me to you.

04 December 2012

day 4: star


My friend Chris and I visited Hollywood today and saw lots of stars, but this was the only one I could find to bring home.  The air was dry, the rooms dark and packed with people.  The costumes were fabulous, romantic and inspiring.  So many wonderful frocks - and Errol Flynn's Robin Hood costume was pretty nifty too. Chris told me that Scarlett O' Hara's dress, the one made from dark green curtains, had inspired her to do the same with some gold velvet curtains from a pub she worked in.  The customers admired the outfit when she wore it, but with puzzlement - they could not work out what was familiar about it.  The wonder of Hollywood.

In my tacky heart I really wanted to come home with Dorothy's red slippers but had to make do with my cheap star.

03 December 2012

day 3: board games


So here we have some board games to prepare you for those you may be playing after Christmas lunch, inspired by a visit to Tate Britain on a grey Saturday afternoon this weekend.  This is the board on which visitors were invited to comment after attending the Turner Prize exhibits.  According to some of the comments, and comments on comments, some people enjoyed these more than the art works.  In case you are interested, Elizabeth Price's work was the work that affected me most (she won the prize!), and this was the comment which I liked best:


As a substitute for the fun,  I thought some of you might like to play a little board game with the selection of post cards we bought that afternoon.  Four are my choice, three are his.  But which ones did I choose, and which were his? (You don't have to know the names of the artists/ pictures to answer this.)


To compensate for the poor light, they are, clockwise from top left:
1. Spartacus Chetwynd: Odd Man Out;
2. Cornelia Parker: Cold Dark Matter: An Exploded View;
3. Marcus Gheeraerts: Portrait of Mary Rogers, Lady Harington;
4. Edward Collier: Trompe L'Oeil of newspapers, letters and writing implements on a wooden board;
5. Barbara Hepworth: Shaft and Circle:
6. Richard Long: Norfolk Flint Circle; and centre,
7. Samuel Palmer: Harvest Moon: Drawing for "A Pastoral Scene".

Oooh.  How hard is that?

There may have to be a mystery prize for the first comment with the correct answers.

02 December 2012

day 2 : glitter

A fling of dunlin* on Rainham Marshes
Walking today along the wall above the Thames looking north across Rainham Marshes, there is a good view of the industrial landscape: pylons, wind turbines, a railway line, the mesh of the Dartford Bridge to the east, the Shard and Canary Wharf to the west looking like miniature building bricks.  Over the marsh a flock of dunlin lifts up and swirl around.  As they rise and fall, twist and turn, they manage to perform a kind of optical illusion, disappearing against the trees, then shimmering suddenly as they turn their white undersides towards the low light in the south.  They swish and swoop, landing briefly in the pools, then a few minutes later fly up, and drop down again and again like glitter falling over the marsh.  The light show is amazing, almost hypnotic. Then, without even waiting for the applause, they turn towards us, fly over our heads with a gentle whoosh, and disappear over the river.

Not quite the kind of glitter you might expect in the calendar, but perfect winter magic nevertheless.

*You can just see the dunlin at the bottom of the picture in the middle against the trees.  The best my camera could do, I'm afraid.  I found a reference to the collective noun being a fling, but personally I'd have called them a glitter, a twinkling, or a sprinkle.

01 December 2012

day 1: garland



A winter garland, made from off-cuts from wool jumpers now hangs from the mantelpiece in our kitchen.  The idea is that it will act as a reminder that winter really has arrived, though the freezing temperatures outside last night should be enough to notice.  The off-cuts result from an obsession I developed for buying charity shop woollens.  There are a lot of huge men's sweaters out there let me tell you - and in my stash.  I was actually thinking about a necklace when I sat down one evening with my little scissors, needle and yarn, then I started to use bigger scraps and I thought it might end up as a scarf.  Of course, it got completely out of control.  

Here endeth the first lesson.

29 November 2012

everyday

Fencing that reminds me of bunting on top of sheds, Mile End, Spring 2012
A couple of weeks ago I watched Everyday, the best drama that I have seen all year.  Filmed over a period of five years and set in rural Norfolk, it recorded how mother (Shirley Henderson) and children in the family of a prisoner lived while the father (John Sim) was in prison.  The children were played by a family of children who grew up considerably over the five year period.  There were few dramatic scenes; primarily this was a narrative of how women left at home by feckless partners manage everyday - feeding the children, getting them to school, taking them to visit their father, the tension of visiting times, the door closing on the father after every visit.  The music and the haunting Norfolk countryside marking the changing of time were enough to grip the throat, let alone the loneliness of mothering a family while your irresponsible husband is in jail.  It was quite magnificent.  All week I could not stop thinking about how people just get on with stuff, all the while hoping for a time when things will be better.  If you haven't watched it, you might still be able to catch it if you have an hour and a half to spare.  Have some tissues nearby, just in case.

None of this is a precursor to a gloomy post, quite the opposite.  Your quilty comments were delightful and uplifting, and reminded me that I wanted to share other moments of fleeting everyday pleasures that have helped to bring some brightness into this gloomy November.  Like...

:: satiating a craving for greens with sharp saladings from the allotment - mizuna, spicy rocket, the baby leaves from the last beetroot left in the ground, radichio leaves that the birds so kindly decided not to peck.


:: after many years of abstinence, finding guilty pleasure in ironing shirts, still a source of some surprise, and cutting up for patches those too worn for collar turning.  There really is a great deal of satisfaction in seeing a neatly folded pile of pristine checks and stripes.  And once I've finished off my wip quilts, I'm thinking these may go into a new one.


:: seeing a snipe hiding in the reeds, the delicate feathers of female gadwall, a teal arse-upwards looking for food, and a seal wallowing on a mudbank, all through a high powered telescope courtesy of the RSPB volunteers, bless them, at Rainham Marshes.  Apparently there were waxwings there the day before. I'm desperate to see one but as the likeliest location is in the berry laden bushes of the  car park at Lakeside Shopping Centre, I may very well miss out.

:: a new kettle, a red one that cheers up a cold dark corner of the kitchen.  We had a couple of weeks using our camping kettle before it arrived, very jolly whistle before breakfast, but took soooo long to boil.

:: on Monday, watching from my bath the last of the very yellow leaves on the mulberry tree blowing in the wind against a grey-mauve sky.  They've almost disappeared now.


:: reading about the journey of wool from fleece to yarn and fabric on the Wovember blog.  Some great posts about the process of making yarn and lots of new words to learn.  You can even see my mum on there wearing a 1970s Burberry.  Thanks are due to Felix and Tom for all the work they have put into curating the blog in all its wondrous woolliness.  Such beautiful sheep, lambs, yarn, darning,

:: starting  to think that maybe this year a 2012 Advent Calendar is in order.


14 November 2012

out of kilter



"At five o'clock in the morning I would be awakened by the clank of a full bucket being set down in the kitchen sink immediately opposite my room... And out I hurried.  But the fire was already blazing, fed with dry wood.  The milk was boiling on the blue-tiled charcoal stove.  Nearby, a bar of chocolate was melting in a little water for my breakfast, and, seated squarely in her cane armchair, my mother was grinding the fragrant coffee which she roasted herself.  The morning hours were always kind to her..."
The time came... Earthly Paradise, Colette

I have been trying to become a morning person for many years, because morning people, supposedly, get up and at it and get a lot done. The end of British Summer Time would help me, or so I thought, but it didn't, not at all.  That Sunday, the cats woke up at five, I got up, read for a while, fell back to sleep until nine and it has been a struggle since then to get out of bed.  It was the beginning of a few weeks of being totally out of kilter.

Normally I embrace the grey skies of autumn on the principle that it is no good struggling against something you can do nothing about and it's always a good time to get on with indoor stuff.  This year I have had to work at it much harder.  So I started sewing.  A few repairs here and there to start with, then, I thought I would give this free pattern a go.  Something strange happened once I started to sort out my odds and ends and cut the strips.  I kept delving back in the cupboard to find ever brighter, splashier fabrics.  It became clear that my preference for muted colours was being completely overwhelmed by a need for the sea, the sun, warmth, light.  I became totally focussed and worked on like a demon until all the strips were sewn into squares, all the squares sewn into rows, all the rows sewn into a giant square that covers the top of our king size bed.  This piece is bright, very bright. You almost need sunglasses to look at it.  It has yet to be quilted but when that is done I have no idea what will become of it.  

The soon-to-be-quilt seems to have worked a little bit of magic.  This morning I woke before six, early for me, and instead of hiding beneath the covers got up and went to an early morning yoga class.  On the way home, the streets were full of golden leaves.  Now the sun is out, the washing is on the line, and I've managed to write a blog post.  Back in kilter now I hope.




22 October 2012

the slattern's washday bunting


For one reason or another misty days in London make you feel like you are in the countryside.  The harsh lines of buildings and bricks are blurred and there is that sweet scent of damp leaves in the street.  In the garden, trees drip softly onto the paving and the cats are all disgruntlement.


That was the weather today in London, except for a very short interlude when there was a subtle change in the light and the whole garden glittered with droplets of water, especially on the clothes pegs.


Now I must admit to feeling somewhat slatternly about leaving my clothes pegs on the line because, according to my friend's mother, they get dirty and soil the clean washing.  She's right I suppose.


Such a pity she never gets to enjoy their jaunty, tipsy cheeriness when it's too wet to hang out the washing.

19 October 2012

space and light


Even at nine o'clock this morning I had to have the lights on because it is so dark and grey, in here and outside.  It must have been the anticipation of this greyness that was behind my impulse to go back to Dungeness a couple of weeks ago, to catch as much of light as I could while it was there.

We found just what we wanted on an exceptional late September day, warm enough, masses of low cumulus clouds scudding across the blue.  Beach, big skies, birds of prey, bumble bees, dragonflies, lakes, pebbles, shingle, wildfowl, wind.  Not my words, but the ones you will find on  RSPB website and they tell most of the story.   Those dragonflies - there were masses of them, red, blue, striped, and harriers, sparrowhawks, kestrels.   And there was the space and light, of course.  I'd entirely forgotten, along with my sunglasses, just how bright it is out on the shingle.

Dungeness,  power station in the distance
It must be the light that makes Dungeness impact so strongly on the memory, that and its oddity - ramshackle houses, fishing sheds, boats, the lighhouses, a seemingly interminable wind and, on the beach, that fierce sound from the sea hitting the shingle and dragging through it, even the serpentine pipes of the power station. We brought our boy here when he was little, five or six years old and with a minor obsession for collecting green plastic fishing floats and bits of scrap metal which ended up in the garden at our allotment. We knew about the garden at Prospect Cottage and thought he might find it inspiring.  I asked  him before I started writing this and he still remembers the day we drove out across the shingle, bought a giant spotted turbot from one of the fishing sheds, went to the top of the lighthouse where he boldly stepped through the little door on to the windy platform at the top while I clung to the wall with my heart in my mouth, and took a ride on the miniature railway. You can still down with a cup of tea outside the cafe at the end of the railway line and you'll see the delight on the faces of the boys - most of them grown men - inspecting the engines and having their snaps taken with them.

One day out on the shingle and marsh wasn't enough for me. We went back again a week later.  This time I wanted to see the bones in the ossuary at Hythe, but we were too late - it closes on 30th September for visits. After a quick trip around Hythe, quite pretty as it happens, we mooched along to Dymchurch to sit on the rather fine seawall for a sunny home-made lunch and a cup of licorice tea. Praise be for the vacuum flask. Then we stopped off further down the beach road and found a sign pointing us to the acoustic mirrors or Listening Ears out on Denge Marsh.

Out on the shingle, Listening Ears in the distance.  Love that barbed wire
We walked across the shingle - hard work- before we reached the track which takes you around the lake and down the causeway along a very pebbly path, surrounded by bushes and trees.  Then suddenly there they were, on a small island.

The Listening Ears
The Listening Ears were built here because of the silence.  This was before the shingle had been scoured away for the building trade and the lakes later created.  Now the air is full of the sound of wildfowl.  And on the way back, with the sun going down, there was the crunch of our feet on the shingle, at least before we reached the rows of bland bungalows which line the beach road.

The bridge will be open on 4th November.  We may well be visiting again.


17 October 2012

a clean sweep

I think I overdid it yesterday, for I have been unable to think in a straight line and can hardly walk in one with my aching joints.  It started with a visit from the chimney sweep.  This year I knew I had to get round to having the chimneys swept before we started on our domestic burn-ups. It was only when I called and he asked when we last had them done that I started to hum and hah.  "Erm, I think it was your dad who came."  Secretly I knew perfectly well that in fact we have only had the sweep here once in nearly 30 years.  Turns out that the old man has been dead for two years and was ill for several years before that. 

The sweep duly arrived today 20 minutes early.  My goodness that man had some energy.  After five minutes he reminded me that it was traditional for the sweep to be given a cup of tea.  It would have been foolhardy to refuse.  Then he set to.  After a little while he called "It's out" and I was urged - twice - to go and see the brush peeping out all Mary-Poppins-like through the chimney pot.  The chimneys, it seems are in fine enough fettle too, which was a relief.  By the time he left, after a second cup of tea, I knew all about him, some of which you can read here, and more.  I can tell you where he went to school, how many kids he has, his philosophy on life, all about his clothes, his cars, his homes, his health, his wives.  But I liked him, I really did, he seemed completely wysiwyg, even though I had to sit down and have a quiet cup of tea when he left.  The two rooms were spick and smelt mildly of soot, rather nice, and today there has been the occasional gentle fall of dustiness into the hearth.  I think it may be a spell.

He was gone just after eleven leaving me with time to visit the dentist, the supermarket, meet a friend for a late lunch, look around the Whitechapel (more to say about that), show my friend around my childhood stamping ground, come home and make a heart-stopping bakewell traybake - rather nice but so very much butter - and get along to the WI for a talk by the generous, funny and gently inspiring John-Paul Flintoff on how to change the world.

So I've been very tired today, but I think it is the chimney sweep who's mainly to blame.

It's asparagus fern and some rosehips on the mantle piece.  Never before have I witnessed such a forest of fern. And the Bakewell looked very pretty all studded with raspberries but had to be taken in a rush to said WI meeting.

26 September 2012

a significant birthday


I'm ashamed to say that I forgot to buy a birthday card, but I did remember to make a cake*. I think she liked it, though it did make her look like tiny.

She has to remind me every now and then that she is an old lady because sometimes I forget that too.

*appropriately, Knit Nurses Granny's Fruit cake, decorated with the help of a packet of pre-made icing.